Few days pass where I don’t think about you. I often wonder were you alive if you’d be proud of what I’ve achieved and who I’ve become.
I guess I haven’t really changed much from the son you raised. All those belligerent qualities you warned would be detrimental in the corporate world have turned out to be rather advantageous as a small business owner.
I’m sure some would disagree but I think I’ve become a bit more patient and empathetic. But just like you I’m driven to achieve my goals and I’m just as unrelenting in that pursuit.
I think you’d be happy to see me with Bishop and would approve of me as a father. Coming home to her running down the hall exclaiming, “Dad Dad!” is a joy unlike any I’ve ever known. She’s full tilt, that’s for sure, but I reckon she comes by it honest.
I wish you could have met Julie. I’m certain you two would have had a lot to talk about. She’s has our drive and she could have gone toe to toe with you intellectually. I’m really fortunate to have met such a strong, determined, and motivated woman.
I’m still driven by demons but I’ve got a great doctor on my side. Everyday is a challenge but most days I’m up for it. Creating a life I’m proud of and surrounding myself with people I love gives me so many reasons to keep calm and carry on.
You probably wouldn’t believe it but Julie and I are building our house by ourselves just down the road from your and Mom’s house. You’d probably tell me I’m trying to do too much but I think you’d secretly smile after seeing the progress we’ve made. I wish you could have been part of the design. We’ve both been inspired by all the thoughtful considerations and efficiencies you built into the creek houses.
I wish you were here to help me navigate through life. I appreciate so much all you did to set me up for success, for letting me fail while encouraging me to persevere. I think that’s the quality trait you imparted in me most. I refer back to your favorite Calvin Coolidge quote often…
“Nothing in this world can take the place of persistence. Talent will not; nothing is more common than unsuccessful men with talent. Genius will not; unrewarded genius is almost a proverb. Education will not; the world is full of educated derelicts. Persistence and determination alone are omnipotent. The slogan Press On! has solved and always will solve the problems of the human race.”
I’m not the most talented man, definitely not a genius, and certainly not academically pedigreed, but I’ll be damned if I don’t know how to bury my head and push on. Thank you for instilling that in me.
Happy birthday Dad. I love you so much. Your spirit is never far from me. Until we meet again…